Student life isn't that bad, really. I mean, up until thursday last week, it was very, very hard. I had deadlines for essays. Deadlines for pre-lab tests (without which, I cannot perform a prac, which is really kinda important for Science stuff!). Deadlines for this that and the other thing. I also had no money. Like, next to NONE. I had $200.00 in my savings account that was supposed to be my summer clothing allowance, but I hadn't felt comfortable spending it, because aside from tutoring two kids once a week each, I had virtually no income. And then on top of that, I got knocked back when I asked if I could apply for government support as I was a student. But I don't meet enough criteria to get any support at all.
I got really upset over that - particularly because I feel that as a student, I *should* be automatically eligible for support - because uni is fucking EXPENSIVE. Unless you have parents who are loaded, it's really difficult to afford. Mum had to take out a loan just so I could have somewhere to live while I'm there, because of course, my particular course wasn't offered where I live. And yet, here I was doing something to further my education and having the potential to do something really good in the health sector for research, and the government says "Fuck off, you don't deserve any help", while the bogan scumbags who dropped out of high school at 16 and don't even bother *trying* to get a job, get more money in a week than is required. *and breathe* I'm not exaggerating here. I met a girl in the supermarket who dropped out of school when we were fifteen a few weeks back. She's now 19 (Same as me), and is living purely off benefits (which I worked out in my head, are about $550 AUD a fortnight). I asked where she was working, "Nowhere, can't be bothered." was her response. Can't be bothered? What the shuddering fuck?
Anyway. Last week I came home quite upset from the centrelink place, (also because I was sick with a bug) and poured out my woes to my mum. Mum is ace. I love her.
And then on wednesday night, I got a call from the Victorian Rural Health Association, telling me that they've awarded me a $5k scholarship towards my degree.
The relief I felt honestly can't be put into words. it was immense. It really was. I feel as if I've finally got some recognition towards my work ethic and I feel really happy about it. It also means I don't feel guilty when I go to the shops for food and I get a bag of crisps as a treat, or the latest Doctor Who dvd.
I have been just so incredibly busy and then run down and then busier still just because I don't really let myself slack off.
Tomorrow I am taking the day off, going to the physio about my hip, getting my fingers sized for rings since Noel asked me to, and I'm gonna buy mum's present for mother's day.
And on Friday, I'm gonna try my first proper "walk" since my car accident.
Fingers crossed that this is karma coming in with the goods for me. :)
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